I have neglected this beautiful platform that helped me through a lot this past year. It’s very easy to get caught up in life and all of the many other intricacies. It may also be because I have been creating a lot of videos on Youtube. I’ve never loved doing something so much (besides writing, of course).
So here I am, almost into my second week of IV medications but finally home. I spent 10 grueling days in the hospital and it was a lot, to say the least. I feel as though every hospital admission takes a part of me away. Slowly hacking away at my sense of self and love for life.
Yesterday when I finally came home, I went out to eat at Olive Garden and it felt so surreal. Surreal to be surrounded by people, people who don’t have masks on or gowns, people who don’t come in to take my blood pressure, people who don’t see me as a sick patient; just normal, living people. It was so strange, it was as if my mind couldn’t handle it.
I started off my hospital admission with pneumonia and right upper lobe problems, I was then started on a medication that I had a reaction to almost immediately. But things got better and eventually, we found a medication that actually worked, as in I didn’t react to it. I am not 100% positive that this medication is actually proving beneficial for my lungs. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I feel better. But not to the extent of feeling completely healthy.
So I am just pushing through hoping this week will show me more of a change.
Just got to have hope, I suppose.
Here are the videos I posted during my hospital stay if you would like to see them!